It's been a long week.
Between football practices, games, parent/teacher conferences, and church activities, I think Chad has only gotten to see the kids for about 30 minutes on Monday night and in the car to and from church Wednesday night. So of course, he's wiped out. And when he's gone so much, that means I'm wiped out.
I was so looking forward to Friday night. My parents were going to come up and spend the night. And after football practice, Chad would be home and we could unwind together and put off our stressors for a few more days. I needed Friday night.
Then yesterday, Chad found out that he had to chaperone the school dance Friday night, which meant he would have to go straight there after practice and stay until 10. Ugh for him. Ugh for the family. Double ugh.
At least my parents would be there so they could help with the kids. So all was not lost. Right?....
Then my mom called and sadly informed me that dad ended up having to work, so they wouldn't be able to come tonight after all.
My heart sank. I let the tears come and I cried like a baby. I wanted to stomp my feet and slam doors. I wanted to get on my blog and whine about how it sometimes feels like I'm a single mom. I wanted to feel sorry for myself. I wanted others to feel sorry for me.
And then God slapped me.
Not physically, of course. I would be dead. But He slapped me with the truth of what a big baby I was being.
The truth is... I'm not a single mom. I can't even begin to imagine how hard that would be.
The truth is... my husband isn't currently deployed like several other dads I know. I actually get to have my husband around on the weekends and sleep in the same bed as him.
The truth is... I have a wonderful, loving husband who is also an incredible father who hates not being able to see his kids as often as he'd like to this time of year.
The truth is... football season is almost over and then life can get back to normal.
So I stopped feeling sorry for myself and instead prayed for the moms I know whose husbands are deployed... or just not around.
And I realized how blessed I am.
And then I felt really stupid when I realized what a big baby I can be.